Psalm 55, 20-21 (KJV)

"20 He hath put forth his hands against such as be at peace with him: he hath broken his covenant.
21 The words of his mouth were smoother than butter, but war was in his heart: his words were softer than oil, yet were they drawn swords."


This is me. My heart is beset with war, and yet I smile toward my enemy. My soul is drenched with rage and despair. My misery is my own, and really, I know the reason. I was a Beast then, until God calmed me. I have strayed far since then. It is likely why I am so unstable. It is likely why things seem hopeless. He changed me before; I should allow Him to change me again.