Struggling with an abandoned heritage.

Oktoberfest officially begins today in the Bavarian capital of Munich. It is scheduled to end on 03 October; two weeks of unadulterated binging of nearly every type imaginable, set to the tune of traditional Bavarian brass bands. Photographs of the event show scores of Germans dressed in lederhosen mingling with shirtless college-age men, all grinning and lifting their steins in unison.

Even though our birth-heritage is German, and Bavarian specifically, We find ourself torn in that regard. On one hand, some of us would definitely like to research our earlier heritage. German food, and culture, and language are all fascinating to us. Not only that, but it is an integral part of our being, whether we like that or not.

On the other hand, there is the fact that there is a major part of our existence that was formed and molded by the German members of our family. Most of aspects that formed us were negative in nature. These are the things we rarely admit to ourself, or others. At times it can seem so unrealistic, and I am almost certain that we will not be believed. No one noticed then; I cannot begin to think that we would be given the same courtesy now, after the fact.